What a few months THIS has been... /SIGH
Screwed over at two jobs in a row and left searching desperately. Last great lead I had went 'poof' after that cluster-f' of an 'election' that has thoroughly screwed the job-market-pooch. I'm left grasping at straws and just scrambling to get by. Add into that my last grandparent, my Nana, passing away on Halloween and I'm left just trying to force myself to be cheery to keep from going completely insane. Tried my hand at the whole 'dating' thing again... that went the usual flop as well. XD At least my friends helped me be cheery on my bday.
I wish I could just lean back and breathe, but when you have to take care of yourself and there isn't anyone there to take over holding shit together, that isn't really a possibility. Ah well, ah well. If I could do that, I might try to sketch again. I desperately want to get a nice pic done of some of my D&D group, like my character... a 6-year old(physically) red dragon(with a 150 year old mind... she got reincarnated into the dragon body) but with things the way they are now, I can't even try to go hunting for a commissioner. XD Such is life, we can't have silly things when surviving is already a struggle, can we?
At least I can draw some satisfaction and self-worth by being marginally useful to my friends, though I wonder when that will go poof, too.
I'll just stick to TRYING to get some headway on my NaNoWriMo thing. What with the whole funeral trip and other 'stuff' happening, I don't think I'll get close to the 50k goal, but I can keep chugging away at least!
People I worship/stalk/despair-because-of: Clubs!